Fallen Heights 3
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Her Past by Mar
A couple hours later practice was over.
The way people always fled the church once we were done was actually fascinating to watch. I sat in the back just trying to compose myself.
I had just spent the last two hours belting out gospel tune after the other and trying to sell a perception of myself that I didn’t believe in.
I knew I had a good heart but I wasn’t a holy person.
I should have never been on that stage let alone leading them in worship. I would repeatedly feel sick to my stomach as I thought about all the things I had done.
But I would remind myself that I was hoping to get out soon enough; that I was a good person deep down and then.
I was busy booking the Uber ride when I heard my name. I looked up and the saw the Pastor of the church walking towards me.
I immediately remembered Ms Lecia’s tithe that I was meant to pay into the church’s coffers. I had almost left without doing it.
The Pastor walked up to me and sat next to me.
“Jade, my dear, how are you?”
I bowed my head in a mixture of shame and respect as he spoke.
“You have not been coming to church lately. What has been going on with you?”
“I’ve just been really busy with work and school sir.”
I responded quietly.
He looked at me and smiled,
“You cannot be too busy for God”
he said and then continued on,
“God has a purpose for you. Everyday you are out in the world sinning, you diminish his plans for you. You have a light on you and a gift of a beautiful voice. You are meant to use it to glorify him not the world.
I heard from MsLecia that you’re sometimes out late and keeping questionable friends. That should not be heard of with a child of God. You need to decide on who you want to represent; God or the world. The world will only give you fleeting attention and lead you to sin. The wages of sin is death.
You need to live a life closer to God my dear.”
He turned and looked at me as I forced a smile and thanked him for his words. I truly felt empty.
. . . . .
There was something about the ride. It was smooth but my heart continued to jump off the walls. I desperately wanted to make it stop but I could hear the words of the pastor playing over and over like a Vine looped without someone to stop it.
I just wanted to feel like I didn’t deserve all that but I knew I did.
There were no excuses to be made and I couldn’t conjure valid rebuttals. The truth was that I needed to get my life right and that meant getting out. I was thinking about it all and I just imagined my mother and all she went through for me to have a good life.
No matter what my mother went through, I always felt comforted by the fact that she had my best interests at heart. Even when she was selling drugs. I think that might have been what caused me to continue to tell myself that what Ms. Lecia was having me do was okay.
I knew it was wrong and I was getting tired of it but I had no way out.
Ms. Lecia and the pastor are siblings. Well half siblings.
They grew up together for years after their parents who had them separately got married. They divorced again but the kids Ms. Lecia and Pastor Clark stayed in contact.
Ms. Lecia was well known in the neighborhood. She was the last stop for girls that no one else in the system would take. So if you left her house without being adopted out or getting your own place, you were most likely going to end up on the street.
I was not going to let that happen to me. I was not going to be my mother.
I was not going to struggle with the same things she did but my means of security had to change. Being trapped by staying with Ms. Lecia was not healthy.
I still never understood why she had us doing that kind of work but I had heard from one of the girls that she had been assaulted in college and she basically was too traumatized to continue that eventually she dropped out and disappeared for two years.
She returned to the neighborhood she grew up in and has lived there since. She was said to be a different woman from when they last saw her.
Colder and more focused on her growth as a woman.
She got into various ventures and began to make a name for herself as a businesswoman.
For whatever reason, a lot of people were fearful of Ms. Lecia. Not many people wanted to approach her and even when she attended council meetings, what she said would go.
I realized later that she used us, the girls, as a way to control the city. She sent us to various men who we could then bring down if we chose to. That way she had them in her pocket, a lot of men in her pockets.
That was one of the things that scared me about quitting and running away. I always felt like I was trapped in a horribly negotiated contract. I was thankful to Ms, Lecia for taking me in but I was beginning to think about being more for sister and just for myself but what was I going to do.
. . . . .
The Uber driver David told me that I had arrived at my destination. It was an Old Victorian home that was very well lit in front. I thanked the driver as I shook the heaviness out of my heart and headed towards the house.
Up the stairs I began to wonder what the client would be like. I know I was doing something wrong but I still said a prayer before I walked into every space asking God to protect me.
I arrived at the door and I slowly opened it up.
The house was very tidy. Everything looked like it had its place and would seem completely off if moved around.
I had been told to head straight into the bedroom and wait for him. This was meant to be a short transaction. Give him what he was paying for and leave once he fell asleep.
I walked up the stairs inside the house. I gathered that he was a Caucasian male with two daughters. Probably divorced I figured as I let myself into the bedroom. I placed my bag on the bed and headed for the bathroom.
It had been a long day and a shower was in order.
I turned the shower on and headed back into the room to grab a shower cap. There was no way water was getting in my hair.
I returned a few minutes later to hot water spraying out of the showerhead.
The shower was short but again calming. I felt my troubles leave my shoulders.
Briefly forgetting my problems, I was now in work mode as I exited the shower. I dried myself up and headed in the room.
One foot on the bed; firmly on the bed, I began to lotion my entire body. Covering all the reachable inches of my body.
I slipped into my all white lingerie as had been requested. A few daps of my perfume around my neck, between my thighs and I was ready.
I sat down on the edge of the bed and I was actually scrolling through my Twitter timeline when I heard the door unlock. He was on the phone.
His voice grew as he approached the room. He ended the call shortly before he walked in.
The way he looked at me was the way you looked at a new pair of shoes at the mall. He had that
“I must have you” look as he headed towards me.
I was standing up to introduce myself when he grabbed me off the ground and dropped me on the bed.
My first thought was that he was rough but I think he was just built up. He wanted to get all of the aggression inside him out.
His hands were strong and his grip was safe. Weird to say but I was beginning to get turned on by how he was holding me.
He was kissing my neck and working his way towards my breasts. My eyes closed as I was starting to get into the groove.
And then the door opened.
I couldn’t believe my ears. I opened my eyes and caught the expression of shock boldly written all over his face. The front door had been opened.
“You gotta go”
He whispered as he hurriedly jumped off me and pushed me towards the closet door. He grabbed my bag and threw it in there after me.
He seemed pretty affluent and the closet was huge. But there I was living one of my worst nightmares; half-naked in a married man’s home.
“Baby, I’m home”
I heard her say as she walked up the stairs. She must have returned early from some sort of trip.
I just hoped I would not get caught.
They began to talk for a bit as I heard her take her clothes off. Oh shit!
What if she needed to grab something from the closet?!
I turned around and noticed that both their closets were connected.
For a few seconds, her voice died out while he spoke and then I heard hers pretty close. She was in her closet!
I freaked out and gasped.
She heard me and said,
“Who is that?”
I didn’t give her a moment to ask her follow up question. I grabbed my bag and bolted out of the closet. Barefoot and ass cheeks hanging out of my clothing items, I ran.
I ran for my life as I headed down the stairs towards the front door. I could hear her screaming at him.
I yanked the front door open and continued running. I don’t think I stopped until I was about half a mile away from the house.
I must have looked like a lunatic running in lingerie during the dark of the night. But I had to do it.
I stopped with my hands on my knees as I began to catch my breath.
It all seemed like I was going to die only moments prior. I could not understand what had just happened.
I walked into a dark corner and put my clothes on. I needed to get home.
I picked up my phone to call Ms. Lecia.
The phone rang a few times and then she answered.
“Ms. Lecia… Ms. Lecia”
I said as I tried to contain myself.
“His wife walked in!”
She paused for a second as she sounded like she was waking up and then she said,
“Did she see you?”
She didn’t ask if I was okay. Her asking me if she saw me did not register initially. But then I put it together later.
“No I don’t think she saw my face”
I replied now feeling somewhat irritated.
“Can you please come and pick me up? I’m uptown”
I asked her. She again went silent and then said,
“Did he pay you?”
The expression on my face changed as I said
“No…. I ran out remember before we did anything”
She wasn’t silent this time as she said,
“You know the rules Jade. You have to make your allotted amount on the night you’re given a client. I can’t come and pick you up unless you have full payment ready”
I hung up.
I didn’t even let her finish. I was so angry.
How could she?!
After all the money I had made for her!
I was furious but I also knew what going up against her meant. I had seen another girl shipped to Utah because she disagreed with Ms. Lecia over what school she should attend. Now with her money?
Who knew what lengths she would go to.
I picked up my bag and knew I had to head downtown.
International Blvd was my stop. My heart had dropped. I was in shock.
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Kneva Know by Iman Europe
I certainly didn’t feel like I belonged here. Trust me when I say I knew I wasn’t right or righteous enough to even attempt to judge anyone but I was not a streetwalker.
The cold was harsh. I could feel my nipples harden like frozen grapes.
It was dark as I approached the corner of the street.
There were some other girls gathered there. I just kept my composure as I entered their territory.
I did not want to be targeted or cause any sort of trouble. After all, I didn’t know how this night was going to go and if I was going to make any money.
The kind of money I was expected to bring home from the initial job was 20 times more than what I would have made on the streets in one night but I still had try.
My plan was to find the best looking car and take them for all they had.
Ms.Lecia had enforced that all the girls in the home took a self defense course on Saturday every year to sharpen our skills but we were also instructed to carry a pocket knife and some pepper spray.
The street light wasn’t too bright.
Enough to obscure faces from people looking from afar. Police or otherwise.
Customers had to come close enough to see the “merchandise” they were going to be paying for. It was so cold.
I kept trying to distract myself from the cold but I couldn’t help but notice how scantly dressed the other girls were and they didn’t seem cold at all.
I was wearing a pencil skirt that stopped right above my knees but I still felt sexy enough. I had managed to stay fit all through that summer. And for the work I did, it was a plus if everything was firm and perky.
There I was trying to convince myself that this was a good idea. I had considered just returning home and giving Ms.Lecia some of the money I had stashed inside my mattress.
But that money was important to me. It was for rainy days or for the day I eventually summoned courage. How glad would I be that I stayed on the streets that night.
One car pulled up and a girl got in without saying a word and I panicked for a second.
“What if he hurt her?”
I thought to myself as one of the other ladies walked up to me and stood right beside me. She looked a bit older. I guessed maybe a couple of years or more.
She scanned me from top to bottom before she inched closer and spoke in a low tone,
“You need to loosen up and act like you’ve done this before. If not, these girls will eat you alive”
I looked at her with surprise written across my face. She smiled and nodded,
“How did you know? That it’s my first time that is”
I was able to muster.
She looked straight ahead and smiled and then turned towards me and said,
“Because you look just like I did on my first night out here. Young and terrified. You’ll be fine. Just breathe and be yourself”
She patted me on my back and less than a minute later, a car pulled up and she hopped in. I just stood there.
One after the other, the number of girls decreased.
Soon enough it was just two of us left. I was standing closer to the curb as I looked at the time; it was a few minutes after midnight.
I was beginning to think that I was going to strike out for the night when a Grey sedan parked right in front of me. The car was shiny and I heaved a sigh of relief as I felt I would finally make something of the night.
Not meeting Ms.Lecia’s demands was a terrifying prospect and so I was going to do everything to make sure I got all the money.
I straightened my shirt and walked towards the car.
The windows were tinted.
I reached for the door handle and pulled it open.
There was a very inviting scent that hit me as the lights in the car went on. Somehow the scent set off this calming feeling in me. The passenger side on first glance looked clean.
I sat down and turned to greet the person. The inner lights in the car hadn’t gone off as I turned and looked at him.
The man I saw stunned me and I must have done the same as his mouth was wide open. I never esperred it but I did not realize when I blurted out,
There were no other words needed.
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