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Ready Aim by Mali Music
There was a time when our dreams aligned
You and I wanted to be great
I remember when you wanted me to be your best man
I remember when you were the best man
Your drive motivated me to be a better person
But you professed that your confidence was low
It surprised me because I wanted to emulate it
I didn’t want to be you
But I wanted to be just like you
That awkward phase
We wanted the same type of women
We had the same pick up lines
We failed woefully at living beyond our years
Laughing together as we plotted our greatness
We failed to factor in life
It can change things
We fought like friends do
And made up like we were supposed to
And then life woke us up
We started to want different things
Challenges started to strain things
It took longer to make up
We disagreed within ourselves
I tried to fight you off but I couldn’t
My sadness turned to depression
My dreams became oppressed and drowned
My outlook was bleak
The same dreams we built together seemed to die and crumble away
I really did to hold on
But the more I pulled
The more people pulled us apart
I knew where I should be
I knew I needed to stand with you
It was you and I against the world
People talked about us
They tried to pull us down
They laughed at our dreams
They told us we could not stand tall
Some waited on us to fail
Even the same people with whom we used to pray
I began to waver
My head bowed
And I began to wonder
Maybe they were right
Maybe I wasn’t good enough
Maybe I didn’t deserve love
Maybe I couldn’t hold onto things I loved
Because I couldn’t be loved
Maybe I was just wrong
But then you spoke to me
Inside my heart
The real me
Spoke to me and reminded me
That I am talented
Beautiful beyond words
I could do this
I clutched my dreams
Held them close
I put my head up
I wasn’t going to give up
I have a purpose to fulfill
I am focused on me and my goals
My dream is to be great
To be the best version of myself
And I had to come that agreement with the real me
Over the course of time people change. Things change. Dreams change. Lives change.
From people you had similar goals with to you changing within yourself it happens. And then people get involved to pull you down and tear you apart. The backstabbers, the liars, the false lovers; they all come out. The closer you get to become the true version of who you want to be, they start to nudge and tug at you to bring you back down. Then self doubt creeps in.
all these people saying all these things about you. Certain situations start causing you to doubt yourself. People telling you that you’re unlovable and you begin to believe it. Your heart is broken too many times you don’t think you can every truly love. You fail so many times on the road to your dreams and you begin to believe you need to wake up and forget about them.
I’m here to tell you to hold on. Sometimes you can’t see it but I believe that you’re lovable. You’re great in your own way. You have to talk to yourself. No! Not the one you show the world. Not the one on social media. I need you to talk to your true self. How badly do you want this? How hard can you fight?
Life will throw everything at you from messing with your mood to even your crew. Planting the seed of doubt in your heart and making you question things.
I’m not perfect and I have doubted myself many times. I changed and thought I had to regret being a different person. Life came at me strong with depression, heartbreak and hurt but you have to keep your head up and focus on the real you. Truth is, when it’s all said and done, your happiness is your responsibility. Never let anyone take it away from you; ever.
“Know the real you. Trust the real you. Be you. Be HAPPY”
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9 thoughts on “Doubted”
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Beautifully written, every time you write you give us another bit of yourself and its inspiring. Keep writing from the heart greatness will find you.
smh, aren’t we all flawed almost in the same way? Another great one from you, Merci beaucoup!
Perfect song. Perfect picture. Perfect timing. It’s eerie just how on point your timing has been with these lately. Just what’s needed, right when it’s needed. This year has seen me through so many changes, it’s been a struggle to find myself in the midst of it all. The real me, the me that isn’t hiding behind fixing other people’s problems, that isn’t….woo, let me not write my whole life story in your comment section.
Point being, finding sustainable happiness is my biggest driving force in life right now. It feels selfish at times, but I know that in the end, I’ll be okay and the people that are truly in my corner will understand.
(Also, get out of my head, because you took the topic I was gonna post about this weekend! Lol)
Beautifully done, as always.
Every moment in life is an opportunity to learn; it’s up to us if we want to change who we are because life demands us to or because we have to change for our sanity/happiness. I particularly love the part where you said “finding sustainable happiness is your biggest driving force”. Everyone should have that. Beautifully written and I love Mali music 😊
Beautifully starting my day with this reading and your words reminding me of how weak life situations can get to us by changing our dreams and goals. I found you sharing your personal experience in ur writings most times, and I believe it is a path way for ppl to see and believe that it is not the end of the world at all. Lovely one as usual, keep it up!!!!
Beautifully written as usual,u write with so much passion which means u re so in tune with yourself. Besides it’s like u just know what I struggled with this year and still trying to find my bearing even though u were talking from a male perspective I can relate from the feminine side.
I love the way u use images and songs which suits the piece perfectly well,keep doing ur thing and u will shine so bright.
P.S I use this as a medium to get more music also I like ur taste&choice of music
” your happiness is your responsibility ” very true and wise words . Thank you for being open and making people realise they are not alone in their thoughts
“The closer you get to become the true version of who you want to be, they start to nudge and tug at you to bring you back down. Then self doubt creeps in.” So true, can definitely relate to that. Beautifully written, keep up the good work *thumbs up*
Thank you for this…talk about the saying/writing the right thing at the right time!