Yours (CoverSeason) by La Braya
When I wailed
You toiled away
This is not your fault
But now he beats on me
And I want to run
But I remember the words you spoke
Now matter the feelings it evokes
Your home is your home
I’m applying a bit more
To cover up my scars
Bruises and deep scars
I kept in giving it one more try
I wouldn’t cry
But you where nowhere to hold my
Who knew I was meant to text her when she got home
I didn’t know I wasn’t supposed to enjoy being alone
That I am meant to appreciate her more than her giving me some
Now I’m in love
But telling her is not an option
So I’ll select none of the above
Let me continue to hide behind my pride
Taking my failures in stride
But never really learning anything
I was told that I was allowed to leave after 15 minutes
If the professor didn’t show
It’s been 15years
I have waited so long
My chest hairs began to grow
I would FaceTime
Yet you would text back
Returning home with a heavy heart
I just wanted you to whisper in your deep voice
Truly capturing me in the love I thought we shared
But hours would pass
Nights would count on
And we continued to grow apart
This was not what we wanted from the
I appreciate you
Always being there
Even when you’re not here
Our friendship has grown
You are my best
It was such a great ride
You became the first
In my heart
In my thoughts
With you I was secure
And then suddenly you told me you wanted more
And over time you would still come over
But you were gone
I just can’t seem to stay
When it gets tough
Because I believe I have no one
I heard of your legend
But daddy I needed your presence
I am supposed to raise a son
But I keep waiting for you to drop out the sky
From behind the sun
But I have continued to realize
The longer I wait
The more I get burned
So I’m going inside where I think it’s safe
At least in there I can’t get hurt
Out here that’s not the case
You cannot protect me out here
You haven’t really protected me anywhere
Please make sure to download my latest #WhatTheHeckMan Rant 2/25. It is super funny!
Many of us are fostered by the world today.
My condolences to those who have lost parents. I pray you find peace and they rest in peace.
I wrote this piece a few weeks ago but in light of thinking about how many of us are raised by the “system”
I work very closely with foster families and I see what the lives of these kids look like.
Recently I said “fall in love with condoms you cannot fall in love with your kids”.
You might not catch the direct meaning of that statement but the truth is many of were not raised by our parents. They were “absent ” one way or another.
Some were physically present but emotionally unavailable. There are some today who grew up in the same households with their parents but have no relationship.
This is not to say that the parents are horrible people. I am just of the opinion that if you decide to bring children into the world. It is your duty to be everything and more for them.
I was raised by my grandparents for the most part, my parents in the States working to give us the best education and such but there are certain lessons that you can truly only get from a relationship with a parent.
My relationships with my father and mother are phenomenal today but I count myself lucky.
There are some who never get the chance to learn from their guardians.
I have seen many broken relationships and derailed lives because they do not know a way of being. One of the most important things with children is being able to model things to them.
When no one is there to model, who do you learn from?
Where do you learn to follow through, patience, growth, importance of hardwork and where do you get a first hands on look at love?
There are men out there today that cannot love today because they never saw their father show love to their mothers. There are women who cannot seem to be grounded because they had unstable mothers.
Now people boyfriends and girlfriends are doubling as the parents they never had.
We see it on Twitter and IG everyday, the society is “raising” a lot of people. And it shouldn’t be that way. From lessons on etiquette to lessons on love, social media and society are now the tutors.
I always ask you to ask yourself how you’re doing. Today, I challenge you to be there for someone. Even if no one was present for you.
Start to think about your life and future. Work toward being physically present and also emotionally sound for those that love you.
You don’t want the world teaching your child or friend, how to be become themselves.
Choose to be present.
RUINS 4 on Saturday. It will be a fantastic one!
Thank you for reading and commenting. You are highly appreciated.
Lookout for part 4 of Ruins; this Saturday.
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