Insecure

People tell me I’m great

But I don’t see it

I’m told it’s about what’s in my heart

No on my face

But when I have no makeup on

It’s like people don’t want to relate

 

I try to hide the hurt

Glass after glass

When the emptiness hits

I fall flat

Praying for the pain to pass

Back to the beginning

I fear as my world stays spinning

Never giving me enough time to find

My true meaning

 

Body image issues

I don’t like this

Weight sways back and forth like handle bars

My pictures rack up likes

But I need another shortly after

Before the doubt within spikes

I question what people see in me

I never truly love the real me

And the feeling is similar between my homies

But we never talk about it

 

My heart has scars

It’s been torn apart

I attempt to mend it many times

But my environment drags me down

And somehow pierces again like darts

I should know my own self worth

I’ve been told what I mean to you and more

But here I am

Doubtful

Scared

Concerned

Stuck

In the same position and feeling out of luck

Running on fumes like a broken truck

The clock ticks

And I watch my growth come to a halt

 

 

So here I am

Broken

At the end of the road with no more to question myself

I have to push on

I promise to hold the reins and stand strong

Embrace and love myself once more

Truly at the end

I’m all I’ve got

So hug those stretch marks as they hug you

Keep snoring loudly

They don’t bother you

Love that extra pound of flesh

One more scoop of ice cream

It won’t kill you

Love you like it’s all you have

Love every scar

Every hurt

Every time you hit the dirt

Love all of you

And love it with every breath

You are truly beautiful

With or without that expensive dress

Lookout for my new series; this Saturday titled “The Abandoned One”

 

#WordsofWednesday 

Insecurities are normal. We all have them. They eat at you in many ways without you knowing how much they take away. The can halt you and cause you to fault yourself.

Proven and true.

But once you embrace them, you can turn them to strengths. The power they hold over you, you can harness and let it fuel you instead. My biggest insecurity is being left alone. Like the people I love the most leaving me. There have been situations where I have felt left behind.
Those situations have affected my relations(hips) lol. And caused me to always drive with the handbrake on.
I have lost people I love because I wasn’t able to be vulnerable enough.
And this all stemmed from not loving myself enough. It really sucks too.

This is a description of what some insecurities do:

You don’t love something about you or some part of you

Then you try to guard that part of you

The moment something makes you feel bad about that side of you

It automatically reinforces that you can never love that side of you anyways. Makes sense?

Body image issues, trust issues, loss issues, lack of self belief or worth. They are control and highlight insecurities within us.
Today I ask you to embrace those that you have and love yourself some more. Try harder today

Before you hurt yourself or hurt the people you really love.

If you can and want to, share one of the things that makes you feel insecure with me. Take ownership of it.

Stay Up!

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