People tell me I’m great
But I don’t see it
I’m told it’s about what’s in my heart
No on my face
But when I have no makeup on
It’s like people don’t want to relate
I try to hide the hurt
Glass after glass
When the emptiness hits
I fall flat
Praying for the pain to pass
Back to the beginning
I fear as my world stays spinning
Never giving me enough time to find
My true meaning
Body image issues
I don’t like this
Weight sways back and forth like handle bars
My pictures rack up likes
But I need another shortly after
Before the doubt within spikes
I question what people see in me
I never truly love the real me
And the feeling is similar between my homies
But we never talk about it
My heart has scars
It’s been torn apart
I attempt to mend it many times
But my environment drags me down
And somehow pierces again like darts
I should know my own self worth
I’ve been told what I mean to you and more
But here I am
In the same position and feeling out of luck
Running on fumes like a broken truck
The clock ticks
And I watch my growth come to a halt
So here I am
At the end of the road with no more to question myself
I have to push on
I promise to hold the reins and stand strong
Embrace and love myself once more
Truly at the end
I’m all I’ve got
So hug those stretch marks as they hug you
Keep snoring loudly
They don’t bother you
Love that extra pound of flesh
One more scoop of ice cream
It won’t kill you
Love you like it’s all you have
Love every scar
Every time you hit the dirt
Love all of you
And love it with every breath
You are truly beautiful
With or without that expensive dress
Lookout for my new series; this Saturday titled “The Abandoned One”
Insecurities are normal. We all have them. They eat at you in many ways without you knowing how much they take away. The can halt you and cause you to fault yourself.
Proven and true.
But once you embrace them, you can turn them to strengths. The power they hold over you, you can harness and let it fuel you instead. My biggest insecurity is being left alone. Like the people I love the most leaving me. There have been situations where I have felt left behind.
Those situations have affected my relations(hips) lol. And caused me to always drive with the handbrake on.
I have lost people I love because I wasn’t able to be vulnerable enough.
And this all stemmed from not loving myself enough. It really sucks too.
This is a description of what some insecurities do:
You don’t love something about you or some part of you
Then you try to guard that part of you
The moment something makes you feel bad about that side of you
It automatically reinforces that you can never love that side of you anyways. Makes sense?
Body image issues, trust issues, loss issues, lack of self belief or worth. They are control and highlight insecurities within us.
Today I ask you to embrace those that you have and love yourself some more. Try harder today
Before you hurt yourself or hurt the people you really love.
If you can and want to, share one of the things that makes you feel insecure with me. Take ownership of it.
Thank you for reading and commenting. You are highly appreciated.
Lookout for my new series; this Saturday called “The Abandoned One”
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