“I”
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Anoti by M.I Abaga ft. Gabriel
THIS IS MY 100TH POST ON #WhatTheHeckMan and I WANT TO THANK YOU FOR THAT!
I am unique
I recognize that I am different
I don’t follow your themes
I understand that part of me is greater than I know
I have been through so much, battling through sorrow
I pray each day for a better tomorrow
I ask for grace to never have to say “Had I known”
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I have seen pain
I have felt life try to break me through it’s last strain
I have watched it sap all the blood out of my veins
I am strong
I am vulnerable
I am dedicated to my family and my hustle
I bleed and I cry
I sometimes reminisce and wonder why
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I overthink sometimes
I try not to
I recognize that it is something regret would have you do
I am scared
I am worried I would hurt again and again filled with regret
I bottle things up inside
I don’t think anyone would understand me so why even try
I pray way less than I should
I would do more if I could
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I have been made to feel like I wasn’t good enough
I have had fingers pointed at me like I was the wrong one
I have elected to listen to myself and choose my path
I have decided that no matter what
I will enjoy life and what it gives me back
I sometimes wish you never left
I realize that it is possible that you were never truly here
I want to fall in love again
I want to share my heart with you
I am terrified that the same outcome would happen with you too
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I am complex
I reiterate that I am different
I have goals that terrify and excite me in the same breath
I forgive way too easily
I know my purpose and my destiny
I want to impact the world in my own way
I want my legacy to have its own say
I want to continue to grow daily, emotionally, spiritually and financially
I have dreams to be a better me
I have plans that I will look back at this as a better me
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I am evolving as time goes by
I am growing right in front of my own eyes
I still have fears
I have my doubts
I will never let them define me, that is not what I am about
I will continue to shock myself as I push the envelope
I know my integrity will speak for me wherever I go
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I say to you today
I am who I am
I refuse to apologize for not being who you want me to be
I refuse to be put down by anyone who doesn’t appreciate me for me
I am unique and I amazing in my own way
I have to continue to remind myself; each and every single day
This is my 100th post on #WhatTheHeckMan and it is a declaration of who I am. It has been a tremendous journey. One filled with laughs, jokes, growth, stories, poems, sex, life, pain, hurt, love, discussion, art and of course, those #WhatTheHeckMan (Sanmi) moments you love so much.
I wrote “I” so all of you can have “I” moments where you embrace yourself for who you are.
I don’t have much to say today but I hope you have stuff to say to and for me. This feels like a birthday to me…
So here it goes, if you can answer these, I will be grateful…
1. What does #WhatTheHeckMan mean to you?
2. What do you enjoy the most about #WTHM?
3. What do you dislike about it?
4. How can you help grow this platform into a bigger wave?
5. Do you know how grateful I am to have you on this ride?
6. What would you like to see more of on #WTHM?
Please leave me a comment or encouragement or even criticism. I live for your comments engagement and feedback. I want to reach more people.
I need your help.
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