Waves by Mr Probz
I don’t want you to come close
I don’t even want you to talk
Because you’ll captivate me
Slowly find your way and start to consume me
My thoughts and dreams
Become one with you
My fears you’ll wash away like by a stream
With yours tongue white like a new sponge
I don’t want to fall for you
Because I know how this ends
Take this bargain
Let’s just stay friends
Months have passed
Seasons have changed
Blocks are built
I have come of age
You’re still here
and now we talk everyday
Somehow in you
I now find inspiration in a new way
The future I see in you like a crystal ball
With you by my side
I manage to stand tall
I found love
Somehow behind my dark skin I blush
The words that come from you
They lift me up
Being with you
Leaves me wanting more
Less of me
You and more
The way you look at me
You search my soul
The deepest of you
I really want to know
I’m in love with you now
That I know
I wish I knew
Just hold me close
And promise you’ll stay true
It’s now harder to get you talk
When you wanted me
All avenues of mine
You used to stalk
The growth has stopped
The love is there
But it’s not coming through anymore
More and more
I see you’re not here
I know where you are
But I feel so alone like in the start
You broke my heart
You scarred and tore me apart
Now I’m definitely back to the start
And I’m comparing the next person to you
Trying to build the next model like you
But it was you
That gave me tears
Made me cry and broke me in two
I don’t even know what is true
I ask myself
Who are you
And I question what is love
Your words used to adorn me
Now they annoy
I can’t imagine I fell for you
My insecurities I have to you
Pieces of me are littered around your home
But my throbs alone
Yet I am still drawn to you
I’m crying to him about you
As he smoothes my hair
I can feel myself feeling safe here
But I know exactly how this ends
I’m crying here because I was just here
Falling in love is the easiest part of an interaction/relationship. It can be with a job, work, school anything. In someone that understands and completes you, you slowly find yourself drifting away. You get lost in them and begin to align your dreams and goals.
There is a fear there though. Tangible and very real, people close that door because they do not want to experience what it feels to be heart broken.
Breakups are hard. For the most part and if you truly loved the person, it can be a rough time.
You question God, yourself, your choices. Self worth and self hate become a conversation. I’m here to tell you that it’s not always you.
My friend told me that
“no matter how much love you have, if you plant it in the wrong soil, it won’t grow. No matter what you do”
Point there is, no matter how great you are, if the person isn’t the right one for you or they are not ready, you will never feel like you’re enough.
Bad breakups or hurtful break ups like cheating, abuse or eating plantain when you weren’t supposed to can cause a lot of self blaming.
I just want you to know that
“The worst thing that can you do is to give up on you because of somebody else.” -B
Dust yourself off and get up. You are beautiful, you are strong. You are unique and heck, you are part of the #WhatTheHeckMan crew!
Some of you are out there in abusive, stagnant or non existent situations or relationships. If you know you deserve more, ask for it. If you don’t get it, then leave.
Break ups don’t have to only be for relationships. Sometimes you need to leave a friendship, job, environment. Self evaluate tonight and find where you need to make a change and do it soon. Before it gets worse.
Above all though, pray over everything.
Till next time.
Thank you for reading and commenting. You are highly appreciated.
Lookout for part 3 of Ruins; this Saturday.
© 2015 #WhatTheHeckMan
7 thoughts on “The End”
Straight away I connected this to my work, trying to find my way on my next step and what path I want to take professionally. Above all I have prayed, I’m still not sure as yet but I know God will care for me as my hands will always do his work. This music!! Chai!! U dey kill me ooo!!! great work!!
I like the way you did this , it’s like the stages of a relationship .. The friendship – dating/ falling in love – the problems – the breakup / aftermath . No point staying in any job / situation / friendship where your worth isn’t recognised . As much as it hurts to let go , got to know your worth and leave
This is just a #Norubber nd #WhatTheHeckMan Collabo. Awesomes words and great connection with all the relationship we come across in life👏👌👍
“eating plantain when you weren’t supposed” ? LMAO! Its amazing how you manage to bring plantain into almost every piece you write. But, is there ever a wrong time to eat plantain?
Beautifully written as expected. Love the fact that you tied this not only to relationships, but also to jobs and general life situations.
Topics on relationships, love, and heartbreak, are very interesting; everyone’s story is uniquely different. While some are afraid to fall in love for fear of heartbreak, others are afraid of being heartbroken or falling out of love for fear of being incomplete. But I imagine one thing stays true: the actual act of being in love, is a beautiful thing (again not just with someone, but with general life situations).
1 John 4:18 came to mind while writing the latter part of this comment.
Whoever said this is so smart “no matter how much love you have, if you plant it in the wrong soil, it won’t grow…” We all deserve to be happy in every relationship, stay connected, remain inspired. Definitely we need to know our worth, what we deserve and learn to let go when treated less than we deserve in whatever relationship.
There is no wrong time to eat plantain 😏. Beautiful written as always 👏
this piece is very relate-able. i find it really amazing how you manage to put the pieces altogether and reach us at a point where everyone understands. We all need to treat ourselves better regardless of our shortcomings. This I like! And the song too, really nice.
It is very difficult to part ways. Most often when we consider how much we have invested. It feels like we have wasted so much time. I spent 2 years of my life day dreaming and hoping that things would change, I got the worst of treatments and all the while I advised others to quite similar relationships. I had to find courage to leave once and for all. I am happy everyday. It hurt initially but I have healed so well that I forget it ever happened.